I used to not believe in intuition. Or should I say, I didn’t believe I had it. Whenever people talk about it, it just so sounds spiritual, distant, and vague. So phrases like “trust your gut” confused the hell out of me.

What do you mean gut??

Funny enough, since all external noises (the job, the boyfriend, the family) were removed, I’m actually beginning to sense something.

I stopped hitting my head against writing in English, and chose to come back to writing in a different language. My stories flowed. That’s intuition.

I choose my sports based on how I feel, and they turn out to be the thing I need the most. Krav Maga for confrontations. Surfing for letting go of control. Weight training for becoming stronger. That’s intuition.

I let go of the chatter in my brain, and said exactly what’s on my mind. The other person smiled back with a big grin. That’s intuition.

It’s not that complicated at all. Intuition comes up in the gap between thoughts. Quiet and soft.

Watch out for self-judgment though. The voice that says, “You’re being too sensitive,” or “it’s not that bad,” or “I don’t deserve it” - that’s the judgment trying to muffle the intuition.

I felt a pull towards Taiwan yesterday. The thought crossed my mind that maybe I should go visit. Then this morning I woke up to a reply on a comment from my Taiwanese pen pal. She invited me to come and visit Taiwan! For the second time!

That was the sign. The thought of finally visiting the island made my heart swell. So now I’m planning a trip to Taiwan this year. Still not sure what I’ll find there, but the whisper is so loud that I can’t ignore it.